Saturday, January 19, 2008
On The Lack Of Thinking
"The mind must receive a degree of enlargement and obtain a little strength by a slight exertion of its thinking powers." Mary WollstonecraftHere I am so happy after having dinner. The dishes were all to my taste - rice of the right ... when I am stumped by the lack of words to describe rice. How stupid is that?! I just wanna be able to write freely and let the words come naturally out of me. Succinct, accurate, fits the 'bill' per se and it just sucks when I can't express myself.
Like the rice I was just trying to put into words, I like to eat long grained rice and for the Chinese, some like to eat rice in lumpy morsels. I however, like them 'perfectly shaped', firm, fluffy and polished, if you know what I mean.
I remember reading
Losing Julia by Jonathan Hull, (which by the way is my favourite book) and wanting to be a painter because painters understand the meaning of colours and what each colour represents. They can paint a story, or draw the emotions of a person. They can read the minds of their sitter, understand them, read between the lines on their faces, yet sometimes the painting seems so surreal as if the painter had other plans so much so that the picture 'has truth but no logic'.
Once I had ideas about such 'stuffs' if you may but I was shocked when I realized how far I've strayed when I visited my teacher and found that I haven't been 'thinking' lately. We used to exchange opinions on so many different subjects but recently it seems that I've shriveled up in a way,
idling my time pursuing useless and frivolous amusements and desultory employments.
Wollstonecraft also said that a child should attach themselves to either a science as it strengthens the mind or the arts as it cultivates the taste. So now, I'm convinced that the only way I can get my writing and ideas back is to read again and I will endeavour to do so. January is ending. I better hurry on my book, hopefully the month's end will yield better intellectual gains for me.
10:00 PM
